. I really love when people sell furniture and explain away the cat scratches by describing the cat. Like “my small evil tabby has a scratch pad, post and wallscratcher but chose to sharpen her murder mittens on this sofa instead because cats...her displeasure is reflected in the price”. These are my people because you know they wouldn’t trade that beast of burden for all the perfect furniture in the world
. Someone locally called their IG store stevieknickknack and I am green with envy I didn’t consider it first.
. Started over in game of thrones because it’s been a minute and winter is coming and I remember my deep desire for Dothraki savages. Please send a tall strong sexy ugly Dothraki over here to rough me up for a few hours and then he can leave in enough time for me to get an episode of golden girls in before I go to sleep.
. The pink sky last night was beyond stunning through the puffy white clouds and I lit a candle for my mom at 7:05 and had a good cry. 5 years.
. I haven't washed my hair in over a week because it hurts to brush the tangles out and it is also intensely satisfying to brush the tangles out. hmph.
. She messaged to ask for a favour and once again it ended up with me being in shit and her passive aggressively trying to put me down while she gaslighted me. I kept reading the messages cause I thought am I a fucking crazy? you DID in fact say that. I am not responding because I ended asking for a conversation cause I didn't understand what happened the ast 3 times this went down. She didn't want that so I am leaving it. i keep asking what am I missing here and why are you mad at me and if you refuse to straight up honestly tell me what ti is I can't fucking fix it. I knew I shouldn't have responded but I genuinely miss her and want her to be happy.
. they all need to do the fucking work. I am doing mine so I don't vomit constantly over people's lives. I can't keep relationships that are bad for my mental health because i know the back story and belief system they have that drives them to behave that way. To do that i am intentionally causing MYSELF harm and I can't do that anymore and while it makes me feel like a bad friend and horrible person why am I the one to hold all the fuckery because I love them? go to fucking therapy and find your peace cause we will all benefit. I will one hundred percent hold them through it as I have been held through it, but to not even attempt it takes it off my plate and I am free.
. I don't have all the numbers yet but know my mind is made up and this in between is killing me. ugh
. A couple bought the little convenience store a few blocks away and it's now an plant and flower store and they are so lovely and I do every week to buy their 6-10 mini bouquet for my desk flowers and I can see them beside my computer in one of my mom's blue glass vases and this wew act of self loyalty means so much to me. the wee desk flowers went on the non-negotiable side of the budget list.
today’s musings are from Isabel’s writing sanctuary