. one month til my 53rd birthday. this is always such a productive time for me. sun is out. it’s warm. it’s my pre new year.
. got my period for the first time in 1.5 maybe 2 years. its been so long I forgot the symptoms. exhaustion, sadness, depression, headache. but here we are. does this mean i am still peri meno or full meno? I need to look that up.
. was digging for tea in the back of the cupboard and found a half eaten bag of Lays chips. That has never happened before. I am usually licking the bag clean. I can’t remember when I bought Lay’s last. Who am I?
. grateful for my ancient queen to reflect some stuff back to me and keep me accountable to what i want in a long convo yesterday. it shifted a bunch of things keeping me stuck. like my industry and patreon and wellness and what I really do
. time for another closet purge. things are getting packed in there and I am not sure how cause I haven’t been thrifting or shopping.
. “ I never saw a wild thing sorry for itself. A small bird will drop frozen dead from a bough without ever having felt sorry for itself.” ~ D.H. Lawrence - no idea why this quote popped into my head fully remembered yesterday. First time I heard it was in the movie G.I. Jane lol.
. i feel different. is it because I am bleeding or my hair is done or my thyroid is healing or we have had consecutive days of sun or because I am deep in creative mode or the inflammation is down more consecutive days than it rears up or my plants are happy or or or…i don’t LOOK different except my hair. It’s deeper and I don’t even know if it’s happy because the anxiety is still my constant lurker but something has shifted.
. i need to honestly yelp review my surgeon to get it out of my system and off my chest. Literally and metaphorically cause it is my chest.
. is it safe to go to the dentist? i am pissed cases of covid are increasing in BC for a few days in a row now.